i don't know what i wanted, or even what i expected. but it's apparent that it's not wanted by both parties. well i'll just keeps things normal. one time a friend told me that there wasn't a way for her to be happy in a relationship. that she felt that she would always be settling. and maybe that's true of all relationships, maybe i should have settled with that last one. maybe i shouldn't have tried for this last one, well... maybe i should have tried. i'm really upset right now.