i don't know, just don't think of me differently, or get angry. it's not that big of a deal.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
okay so another insecurity is that there is this part of me that feel like i need to change to be with you. because the real me isn't fun enough. i mean i'm actually a fucking boring person. i've never really experienced anything, and i can't do anything. i swear to god that i won't cut myself again. well at least not today. or tomorrow, i need to let them heal. i think that you don't like me being straightedge, and that scares me, i can't really drink like i want to. my blood sugar is effected by it. smoking ruins my lungs. but i miss it so much, though.
i don't know, just don't think of me differently, or get angry. it's not that big of a deal.
i don't know, just don't think of me differently, or get angry. it's not that big of a deal.
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Monday, March 26, 2012
Thursday, March 22, 2012
i used to love you so much, tell everyone that we were such good friends. but that all changed. and i wish that it hadn't. i wish that when i said that i forgave people, it was true. but you... i still do love you, i mean like a bro, but i can't look at you the same. i'm not blaming you, there are some insecurities still left. some lingering thoughts of self harm.
i do feel better now.
well... at least a little.
i do feel better now.
well... at least a little.
Monday, March 19, 2012
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Monday, March 12, 2012
he wants sex, she says no.
he says i love you. she warms up to the idea.
he says forever. she thinks.
(he cheated)
he wants sex, she says no.
he says i love you. she warms up to the idea.
he says forever. she thinks.
he goes on a date with her, buys her flowers. she says i love you more.
he tells her his "secrets". she opens up, really opens up.
he tells her she's the one. she says maybe.
he says she is his everything. she says yes.
(he moved)
(he moved)
i want sex, but i'm not going to ask. i'll just hold you. and mean what i say. and hope the love lasts.
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