to people who say they understand...

(well you have to understand that the world is fucked up.

 no i don't. i won't . 

 no i'm just going to be pissed about it. 

 that's not going to change anything.

 yes it will, i'll make it. 

 people aren't going to listen, if they find you annoying. 

 fine. i'm done. 

 that's not what i meant i understand that people... 

 no, i really don't want to talk about it.)

...fuck you.

i don't know what i wanted, or even what i expected. but it's apparent that it's not wanted by both parties. well i'll just keeps things normal. one time a friend told me that there wasn't a way for her to be happy in a relationship. that she felt that she would always be settling. and maybe that's true of all relationships, maybe i should have settled with that last one. maybe i shouldn't have tried for this last one, well... maybe i should have tried. i'm really upset right now.

you all make me sick.
if that's what you think love is, i will hate as much as i can.

i had some feeling for you.
i still have a feeling.
i don't know what to call it.

i have a secret.

but it's probably something that won't work out. 

i most likely jsut need some more weekends