Also sometimes I feel like that guy who is expecting too much- you know "that guy" that you hate. (with coins, and machines, and sex)
I think I'm going to stop expecting things- I mean I have no reason to, right?

I was a 9/10

I think this might be difficult, because I'm the one who's used to holding the cards. but I mean they've always dropped everything for me. but not you- I mean you did once. but normally you keep me grounded, and have me think things through.

There was a reason you said yes to him? And I kinda want to know.

part of me wants you to hold on to him, but the other part of me is wanting you to not.

It's your life, so I can't tell you anything.

I was watching an interview with Tegan Quin, and she was explaining the song call it off. 

She said that the line "maybe I would have been something you'd be good at." was really upsetting to her- because she felt that she had been putting so much into a relationship that wasn't really going anywhere. It was a moment of realization for her that this relationship wasn't going to go anywhere and how upsetting it was. And almost of a way for her to let go of it. 

I want you to be happy no matter what. Well I want everyone to be happy. but especially you. even if that probably means you being happy with someone else.

sleeping alone. 

my back aches- my legs are restless

the pillows are soaked- and the sheets are stained.