maybe i just overreact but. 

FUCK THIS!

let's get one thing straight. okay?
sure we could be "fuck buddies" but that'a all we could ever have. but that would be shit.
i would be miserable.

alright, now that's why i'm happy we aren't having sex yet. because we have so much more
than that. and we will always. there is tension between us. i wanted a relationship that would
last. i mean is that not what you wanted? or..?
i'm sorry that it happened that way it did. so up until August, we'll have to work on that....building i mean.

okay...

 we've tried this before. the only difference is we're in a legit relationship. but i don't know that's what i thought of... i mean i like the idea, and yeah it sounds great. but i don't know... no let's do it, yeah? 

i mean have a relationship...

so... okay it's a normal thing to happen, i know but i still feel uncomfortable about it. i don't know, i don't think that it's just cause i've never been comfortable with myself. it's just cause, it's something sexual. and i do have intimacy issues. like it took me a lot just to get to where we are today. but it's just something that i have to deal with, i guess.
i don't know what i'm trying to say, or why i'm even trying to say it at all.

and as soon as you said "something personal" i knew, that's why i answered yes right away.

well actually,
you are wrong. fuck you, i hate you, i hope something moderately bad happens to you. but something that's somewhat easy to get over.

"so basically this is it... i love her, but i don't know if this is really what we wanted. like i really enjoy being with her. but more like when we were just messing around, no titles. and i think she feels the same way. and neither of us want to end it. because we don't want it to hurt each other. i guess it's all just fucked. "

every time i see you, you make me want to punch you in the face. 

when i think of what you did to those girls i want to do the same to you, because i know i could. lets get real you're an asshole. i hope something kind of bad happens to you... Prick.

so it's inevitable.
i've dealt with it before.
i was young, but it was worse.
i think it still hurts her. that's why you've been spending so much time alone.

it's really fucking hard to watch though. because both of you are important. and this is really shitty. but i do love her more. and i will always be there for her

this

and today, was really wonderful. and sorry about the hickey, i mean, i meant to, but i didn't. and your warm skin against mine, was the best. (we didn't have sex)

so with this i'm fucked. it's eating away at me. but then if i ask it's not going to be something good, at least not to hear. so be insecure because of possibilities, or be sure that you're not good enough.
shit's good.