My heart broke.

Multiple times actually.
Okay... So when I first noticed it, I didn't want to draw attention to it, because you know. No ones ever done it for me. Also, you actually saying it to me was a blow. I felt like it was my fault. Maybe I just try taking the blame from everyone else. Maybe it was my fault.

Anyway- I think that you're so wonderful, and you should have a positive body image, because you actually are really beautiful. like the kind that is a big deal.

You shouldn't feel bad for doing whatever you are doing. And nothing you could do would make you a bad person. you're a good kid, but you're not really a kid anymore, you're practically a grown ass woman, you're just a good person. I don't want you to feel bad.

I just want you to feel happy, and love who you are. I don't want you to regret any decision you ever make. And I never want you to pick up that habit. Because I still do it. And you're worth so much to me as a friend, and I don't want you to ever feel like I do. it's not a good mental state I'm in, and I want so much better for you.

I can't even explain to you how much you mean to me. You are just as, if not more valuable than anyone else in this world. Don't let anyone tell you differently.

I just want you to know that I love you (like a friend) and even though my words are all jumbled and my sentences are poorly constructed, you should love yourself.



Also it stings to not be as close as we were.